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Look who turned 1 month today!!  This little jelly bean is growing by the minute and guess what!?  He showed us his first true smile on Valentine's Day!!  It is the most beautiful sight my eyes have ever seen.  The Hub and I spend every one of his waking moments to get him to smile some more-we are obsessed.  After making it through the first month, things are slowly getting into a routine (all though still exhausting) and I am slowly gaining confidence as a new mama.  I must admit, trusting myself and being confident has been the hardest thing for me these last couple of weeks.  I know all new mom's go through this and only time will make it easier.  I am working on taking one day at a time, not comparing my babe to other babies and appreciating his individual personality.  I am excited to see what the next month brings!

Littlest Love of All

My days lately...little feet (this was taken soon after Mav was born, hence the vernix between all the creases in his feet-so cute!) and a mellow moment with a semi-smile?  Not sure if it's a grin or just gas.  I can't wait until he really smiles and laughs!  

Slowly, I have been getting in a groove with this little one.  I realize that not only must you surrender yourself during labor, but also as a new parent.  You must let go and let your little one be the guide; it is truly challenging, but I am getting it.  Being alone with Maverick after the Hub went back to work has been one of the most difficult transformations.  But being a mama isn't something that just happens-it takes lots of practice!  I feel so connected to all the new moms out there who feel a little disconnected, isolated, and un-showered once family leave and you are on your own.  

Breastfeeding is slowly getting better as well.  Whew!!!  It is a feed fest over here-this little guy loves to eat (he's just making sure my milk supply is to his liking) & I just keep reminding myself that the first month will be like this and it's ok.  These slow moments don't last forever, so I intend on cherishing them and remaining positive as the days go by.  Talking about all this really helps!  Oh, and this mama needs a haircut!  When the nursing mellows out a bit, I intend on treating myself to a haircut-something easy & shorter!